Yesterday, a person I known from my past give comment in my FB status. I am a little bit surprise since I thought I already remove that person from my list of friends. Since I never read that person’s status in my FB, I am certain that I already remove him. Or, can a person who is not your friend give comments to your status?
I was curious, since I think I know the reason why that person is giving comment on that particular status. So, out of curiosity, I search my email archive to find any saved correspondencies between us.
I found several emails. And I re-read several of them. And after that, I become so embarrass. How can I become so stupid? Well, at that time, I am still young, very young. I was easy to explode, stupid, naive, and so innocent-like.
I was so full of energy, love and wishes, but also vulnerable and inexperience. I becoming to understand now, what have made me to react the way I was.
I always felt that, after all those years, though we have gone our separate ways, I still feel like there’s something unfinished between us. I have always felt that person still owe me something, not just for the hurt he had cause me, but for the lovely feelings as well.
But after reading those forgoten emails, I now remember. I now understand, that I too, had to aplogize. I too, had to forgive and forget, not just for the mistake but also the person. There’s no way I can contact that person again to tell how I now understand the whole thing without imbalancing what we have achieve right now.
So, I can only hope that in a way, between the hurt and the sorrow and the happiness that person is now having, I was forgiven.
I am sorry. I really do.